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Yesterday, family and friends came together and we planted Lolly’s tree. The week before, I prayed for cooler weather and that prayer was answered. I was a little worried a major storm might interrupted the planting but that did not happen. The tree was a little bigger than I expected. I have a VW bug. The tree is about 5 feet tall and it actually fit in my car. I fell in love with it the moment I saw it. LCpl Honda dug the hole in the yard. Everyone arrived and we feasted on sub sandwiches and potato salad. Grandma M brought a carrot cake. Lolly loved baby carrots. Everyone took turns shoveling dirt into the hole. Then Butterfly and my friend’s daughter, Big Brown Eyes helped Lolly’s dad Tango make a well around the tree. Finally, we made a circle around Lolly’s tree and said a prayer and asked God to bless the tree.
It was a wonderful day.
After the planting, I gave everyone a picture of Lolly’s name in the sand.
I am posting our group picture, although we took many pictures that day. The rest I have chosen to keep private. I am also posting a picture of my dad, Grandpa DingDon, one of Lolly’s namesakes. No recipe today. Yesterday was simple, kind of like a picnic. Everyone knows how to make a picnic. Yes?
We love you sweet boy. Donovan. Our Lolly Pop Kid.
I had to add this drawing, done by Butterfly, Lolly’s sissy.
ps. The drawing was lying on my kitchen table today and my cat decided to walk on it. The blue background was done with pastel chalk. I just spent a whole bunch of time in my bathroom trying to wash the blue color off of my cat’s feet. Fun.
Yea, I think that is all I have to say about that…
My daughter Cinderella wrote this awhile back because she can hardly bear people asking her if she is ok.
Are you okay?
A piece of my heart is gone forever, I am not okay.
I may smile, laugh and make jokes, but I am not okay.
The pain in my heart hurts so badly and I am not okay.
It is hard for me to get out of bed everyday, I am not okay.
I am able to function everyday, but I am not okay.
Sometimes I want to end it all and I am not okay.
How can I go through life without him, I am not okay.
I am not the same person I once was, I am not okay.
Some people say I am strong, but that does not mean that I am okay.
I am really weak inside and I am not okay.
I want him back so badly and I am not okay.
I pray to the Lord to give me strength, but I am not okay.
Please stop asking if I am okay.
I am not ok either.
I can not fix anything.
I would if I could.
I can not change anybody.
People do as they choose.
I still want to scream some days.
And I do.
I wish I could go back in time.
But I can not.
I wish for my family to heal.
But I know they never will.
I still have tears everyday.
I am afraid of the day I don’t.
I can not change anything.
No, I am not ok either.
This Saturday we will plant a tree for our Lolly Pop Kid. Our family and Tango’s family will gather at our home and together we will plant an orange tree for Lolly.
I prayed to God that the weather would be a little cooler since the temperature has been around 106 degrees. I mean I really prayed. I just want everyone to be comfortable. However, I did not ask for a hurricane. We do not get full-force hurricanes where we live but we do get some nasty storms from them. So I am hoping the weather will be nice and not drench us with rain all day on Saturday.
I am happy about receiving this photo. There is a woman in Australia writes the names of Angel children in the sand on a beach. She then photos them at sunset and uploads them to her blog. The pictures are absolutely beautiful. I cried when I say Lolly’s photo. There appears to be a red halo over the sun. As I have said before, Lolly had wonderful flaming red hair. So everyone attending the tree planting will receive one of these photos. I think it will be a lovely addition.
Today’s Angel is Brianna Sharp. Brianna was a lively 7th grader when last fall she was diagnosed with diffuse intrinsic pontine glioma, a highly aggressive brain tumor. She went to heaven surrounded by her family on July 25, 2009.
Her father Matt said she had a contagious smile and laugh. She would laugh at his jokes even when they were not that funny.
Brianna kept a daily blog where she has chronicled her battle with cancer. She also describes her life with family and friends.
Brianna is loved and missed by her family, friends and all who knew her. Please say a prayer for Brianna and her family.
Please continue to pray for Lolly Pop Kid and our families. We now have answers as to why Lolly went to Heaven. I will not post that here. The information does not make me feel better. It just breaks my heart more and gives my brain more stuff to think about.
Today is also the start of Childhood Cancer Awarness Month. This is near and dear to my heart because Butterfly once battled Leukemia and won! Please take a moment to think about the littlist warriors today and through the month.
hole in the red sky cloud
all of these clouds appeared on a different Angelversaries of our Lolly Pop Kid.
Angel Tuesday profiles Asa Imad Mayle who became and angel on January 4, 2007. He was 6 years old and in the first grade. Asa was hit by a school bus as he was crossing the street.
Asa was an inquisitive little boy with a big kool-aid smile and big brown eyes. He liked his clothes nice and neat and he especially loved his belt.
He once asked his mommie, “If Batman can’t fly why does he have a cape?” Good question.
Asa even at his young age would talk about growing up, getting married and going to college. He wanted to go to Ohio State. He also new what kind of car he would like to own. Asa wanted a PT Cruiser. Spotting PT Cruisers became a game for Asa. He would shout “PT Cruiser I saw it you missed it!!”
Asa is loved and missed by his family and always will be. Please take a moment to visit his beautiful memorial made in loving memory of Asa by his mommie.