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Getting Closer

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , on February 23, 2010 by juliannah

I missed a call from Cpl Honda on Friday, but he left a message and said he would call Saturday at 8:00 am. When I checked my voicemail and heard the static I knew right off I had missed the call. All is good since I did talk to him on Saturday. He still can not give me homecoming dates. I am still not quite sure where he is because of course he can not tell me and Twitter and FaceBook seem to be way behind real time.

So, I am just hoping for smooth sailing from here. Want. My. Son. Home.

On another note, today is a tough day. 8 months, Tuesday. Still missing our Lolly Pop Kid.

And that’s all I have to say about that.

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Today is my Birthday

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , on January 6, 2010 by juliannah

Today is my birthday. I do not know why but I did not feel very happy this morning. I guess because this has been such a tough year. Losing Lolly Pop Kid was the single worst thing that I have ever been through. I did not feel like celebrating and I so wish I could change everything about this past year.

But. I. Can’t.

There were two amazing things that happened today. First LCpl Honda, who has been deployed since Sept. called me. It was hard to hear him, as it was on Christmas, but he called me to wish me a Happy Birthday. I never expected to get a call today. It was great to talk to him. I can’t wait for him to come home.

I went outside as the sun was rising and saw this.

Red clouds. Lolly clouds. I usually see them on Tuesdays. The day he became an angel. Taking a closer look, the cloud looks like an angel. I could be wrong, but I felt his love and birthday wishes. I had the realization that he does not want me to feel bad all the time. Which I already knew, but it is hard to live it.  Still, it is hard to celebrate things in life when you are missing someone. It is hard to watch your family members hurt. It is hard to miss people that are not at home. It is hard to not know exactly what is going on with the people that are not at home. I hate talking in code. I hate OSPEC. I understand, but I still do not like it.

I guess I just needed a time-out today. I will go on. I feel very comforted by the events that have occurred already today. Tomorrow will be a new day. I will get up and move on. I know I will have bad days. But I will keep putting one foot in front of the other.

Today is my birthday. Thank you Lord for the gifts I received.

Sunday Brunch – A New Year

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , on January 3, 2010 by juliannah

I am praying for a better year. I am looking forward to watching Cinderella walk down the aisle on her father’s arm to be given away to a most wonderful man. I am so happy to welcome Tango to our family. I am also happy to become part of Tango’s family. More peeps to love.

I am so looking forward to my son, LCpl Honda returning from deployment. I never knew how hard this could be. Maybe if communication had not been cut off for so long it would be better. Maybe if I could have actually understood him on Christmas Day it would be better. Maybe. I just received an email from him today, finally after two months. He sounded so down and just wants to come home. He said he was sorry about the car fiasco and sorry for sounding grumpy on Christmas day. It is ok son. I understand.

We did manage to have a nice New Year’s Eve. I made a ham dinner for a bunch of people who are basically hamed out this season. Me and Corvette have only had turkey so we wanted ham. Needless to say I have a lot of leftovers. That’s ok, ham salad, ham and eggs and of course ham and beans which I made yesterday. We had Butterfly for the weekend. Grandma M and Grandpa DingDon, Hippie Guy, Flower Girl and the twins came along with a good friend of mine and her daughter. I don’t know how I did it but I made it to midnight and we blew off confetti poppers and made a bunch of noise. We were also treated to a fireworks show via our neighbors.

So, as I said we hope for a better year filled with a wedding, good family times, homecomings and maybe some more grandkids! Yes, that would be wonderful.

Happy New Year and the recipe for today is, of course Ham and Beans:

1 pound of Navy Beans

1 pound of Pinto Beans

A ham bone with lots of ham attached

1/2 teaspoon of onion powder

1/2 teaspoon of pepper

Put all the ingredients in a crock pot and turn on low for about five or six hours until the beans are soft and the ham is falling of the bone. Remove and give the bone to your dog. Lucie, my big red dog enjoyed the bone this year. Buddy my chihuahua enjoyed a few ham pieces.

A Tattoo For Our Lolly Pop Kid

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , on October 5, 2009 by juliannah

Cinderella got a tattoo today. In honor of her son, our Lolly Pop Kid. He loved the movie ‘Cars’. His first birthday theme was ‘Cars’. so here is a pic of the tattoo.

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Also, my grandaughter, Butterfly sent me a picture of her bedroom makeover. Love it. Her room is so pink…

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I asked her if I could go live in her room. Maybe not. Also notice ‘Cars’ on the TV. Our Lolly is still with us. 

Angel Tuesday

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on September 8, 2009 by juliannah

imagesToday’s Angel is Nicholas Aiden Laplante. Nicholas became an Angel on October 8th, 2008 fighting a battle with a brain tumor. He was fourteen months old.

Nicholas was sweet baby boy with a popeye smile and beautiful eyes.website_toys_largepictures_80-011 During his short time on earth he learned to say what, mom, dad, sis, quack, and no. He loved to ride his four-wheeler ride toy.

Nicholas is loved and missed by his mommy, Daddy and sister. Please add this family to your prayers and stop by their memorial for Nicholas.

Sunday Brunch

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , , , , , , , , , , , on September 6, 2009 by juliannah

Yesterday, family and friends came together and we planted Lolly’s tree. The week before, I prayed for cooler weather and that prayer was answered. I was a little worried a major storm might interrupted the planting but that did not happen. The tree was a little bigger than I expected. I have a VW bug. The tree is about 5 feet tall and it actually fit in my car. I fell in love with it the moment I saw it. LCpl Honda dug the hole in the yard. Everyone arrived and we feasted on sub sandwiches and potato salad. Grandma M brought a carrot cake. Lolly loved baby carrots. Everyone took turns shoveling dirt into the hole. Then Butterfly and my friend’s daughter, Big Brown Eyes helped Lolly’s dad Tango make a well around the tree. Finally, we made a circle around Lolly’s tree and said a prayer and asked God to bless the tree.

It was a wonderful day.

After the planting, I gave everyone a picture of Lolly’s name in the sand.

I am posting our group picture, although we took many pictures that day. The rest I have chosen to keep private. I am also posting a picture of my dad, Grandpa DingDon, one of Lolly’s namesakes. No recipe today. Yesterday was simple, kind of like a picnic. Everyone knows how to make a picnic. Yes?

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We love you sweet boy. Donovan. Our Lolly Pop Kid.

I had to add this drawing, done by Butterfly, Lolly’s sissy.

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ps. The drawing was lying on my kitchen table today and my cat decided to walk on it. The blue background was done with pastel chalk. I just spent a whole bunch of time in my bathroom trying to wash the blue color off of my cat’s feet. Fun.

Yea, I think that is all I have to say about that…

I am not ok either

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , , , on September 4, 2009 by juliannah

My daughter Cinderella wrote this awhile back because she can hardly bear people asking her if she is ok.

Are you okay?

 A piece of my heart is gone forever, I am not okay.

I may smile, laugh and make jokes, but I am not okay.

The pain in my heart hurts so badly and I am not okay.

It is hard for me to get out of bed everyday, I am not okay.

I am able to function everyday, but I am not okay.

Sometimes I want to end it all and I am not okay.

How can I go through life without him, I am not okay.

I am not the same person I once was, I am not okay.

Some people say I am strong, but that does not mean that I am okay.

I am really weak inside and I am not okay.

I want him back so badly and I am not okay.

I pray to the Lord to give me strength, but I am not okay.

 

Please stop asking if I am okay.

I am not ok either.

I can not fix anything.

I would if I could.

I can not change anybody.

People do as they choose.

I still want to scream some days.

And I do.

I wish I could go back in time.

But I can not.

I wish for my family to heal.

But I know they never will.

I still have tears everyday.

I am afraid of the day I don’t.

I can not change anything.

No, I am not ok either.